Never Fails to Amuse Me

I am realizing that it doesn't matter- pregnant...not pregnant...fertile...infertile- you will NEVER get away from amusing comments from random people. :) Now that everyone pretty much knows I'm pregnant- people HAVE to put put in there two cents on the subject. DON'T get me wrong- I have never been pregnant- so this is all new and I need all the advice I can get- I just love the ones that literally TELL you what to do. Example: Friend today at work notices nail polish remover at my desk- totally FREAKS out! You are NOT allowed to do your nails AT ALL when you're pregnant- OR get your hair done- OR drink ANY soda WHATSOEVER- oh boy. I have done LOTS of research obviously on what's okay and what's not okay and ultimately had to make the choice for myself. So yes- I think it's okay to do your nails and hair every so often- I am not saying I am going to BREATH in the fumes as much as possible- just that I think it's okay every once in a while. I get bad headaches unfortunately as a side effect from the nausea medication- awesome! So IF I need it I will drink a soda and take a Tylenol. Again this is not ALL day long and the only thing I drink. SO shoot me! I have a feeling this will get worse as I go- like the WHOA you look like you are having TWINS comment- I think everyone get's that at least once in their pregnancy so I've heard- not looking forward to that one.

Kicker on all this: girl who got mad about the nail polish is 6 weeks pregnant...and smoking. LOVE her...but really?

A Normal Pregnant Lady...

What a happy day today was- I seriously wanted to throw myself a party- as of today I am a full blown just NORMAL pregnant lady! Can you believe it? I got to stop the patches, the vaginal suppositories, ALL the nasty hormones that were added to my already pregnant hormones! My hope is that ending the progesterone might help with the nausea...at least that's my HOPE!! Okay- so a few friends have asked for a belly picture- I have been WAY too embarrassed to post pictures of belly as of now- to be honest I think it's mainly because I have felt like I like the same for the past 11 weeks- FAT! I always thought I would be SO proud of my growing bump- unfortunately when you have to produce 30 plus eggs, and be pumped up with drugs for two months BEFORE you're pregnant- it's hard to tell what is a cute little baby bump and what's not...haha! BUT- I finally agreed to take my FIRST pregnancy shot at 11 weeks along- I figure even if it stays that way a while I will want to compare it for the next babies to come- so for your viewing pleasure (ah hem: please don't make fun)

Here I am in all my glory- not too flattering I know- In all honesty my boobs have probably grown more than my belly has- that's a plus! The ladies had been needing some help up there if you know what I mean.

No this was not me after eating some massive meal- I am not sure if you are supposed to "show" this early- could be just bloating- but there ya have it folks :)

Fun Stuff: I got my first piece of furniture for the baby room FOR FREE from my Mother in Law (Thank you very much! ) I think it's fun and vintage and can't wait to doll it up for the room!


I officially have the keys to my new house and have been thinking of ideas of what to do with the room...especially because I find out in 3 WEEKS from today what I am having!!!! I seriously can't believe it! My baby this week is the size of a LIME!

What in the world? Sounds ginormous to me!! Baby is now 2 inches in length! Oh and he or she is busy playing games with her face and mouth and doing somersaults all day- OH the life of a fetus! In the next nine weeks, Baby Tashjian will increase 30 times in weight and almost triple in length! Baby is growing like CRAZY right now!

Meanwhile mom is still dealing with the occasional nausea..ya know the RUN outside of Costco and throw up on the ground kind...that was awesome :) I am ALMOST in my second trimester so WHAT the heck...when does this end?!!! Until then I am eating dozens of pickles and trying to stay awake all day at work :) I am curious still about this "pregnancy glow" everyone talks about- I would more call it a pregnancy LOW in the beginning- but HEY I am enjoying every minute of it. I am getting more and more excited everyday- and I am THRILLED that so many of my friends dealing with infertility are getting their BFP (Big Fat Positives) as well! Congrats to Sheila and Julie...and one of my other friends finds out tomorrow!!!! FINGERS crossed!!!! And my little nephew will be here in literally the next two weeks- can't wait to practice on him :)

One-Fourth Baked Baby

10 weeks down- 30 to go!!! I know it's early but I am already counting down- only 30 more weeks till our sweet baby is here!

My hormones are raging now and have wrecked havoc on my and my husband's emotional sanity.

Funny story on that:

I was being super grumpy a few nights ago- Jonny came in to give me a hug and accidentley burped in my face- which in turn caused me to do some serious dry heaving. He laughed, trying to find the humor- apologized, and I cried and yelled...now looking back it was kinda funny, however in the moment I wanted to kill my husband. Moral of the story: Don't burp in a pregnant ladies face.

By the end of this week my little embryo is finally considered a "fetus." WOO HOO! Baby's brain will make an incredible 25,000 new neurons every minute this week. I swear I am loosing all my brain cells and neurons and the baby is taking them all! Baby weighs only 4 grams and measures 1½ inches, about the size of a prune. What's so strange to me is ALREADY all the little details like the baby's finger nails and little peach fuzz hair is already growing this week! It's like a tiny little miniature baby- haha so strange!he's swallowing and kicking all the time!

Side Effects: Besides being a bit cranky...my tummy itches all the time and I am feeling some aches and pains, I am reading that is my stretching ligaments or something?? Nausea was SO bad yesterday- even WITH my nausea pills! All the normal side effects I suppose: headaches, constipation (TMI) I know. :)

Other good news: Set up my 14 week ultrasound to find out the sex of the baby- hope he/she is not shy! :) December 6th is the big day and I seriously can't wait! AND My due date got moved up to June 4th :)

My appt today: AMAZING. Not gonna lie- got a little teary eyed when I saw my baby moving! If you can see this video below you can see the baby's arm waving saying hi to mom and dad. Jonny and I were both freaking out for reals- I had NO idea I would see the baby move so much! She didn't catch the first part on video but it did a few body rolls- haha It was SO crazy to watch it's tiny little body move around! FINALLY got to hear the heartbeat! Most amazing sound ever- Jonny recorded it of course. We move in two weeks to our new home and I cannot WAIT to start the nursery!!!! Still in complete awe that this is really happening for us. :)

9 Weeks and Counting!

I seriously can't believe I am already nine weeks- (BARLEY 9 weeks- but STILL!) I still have a few more weeks before getting out of the "scary zone," but everyday I am starting to believe this more and more. My last ultra sound, taken at 8 weeks 1 day Jonny was able to be there- the look on his face was priceless. He was in awe of the little heartbeat on the screen and we both fell in love with this baby together. :) We left straight to San Antonio Texas after the ultra sound and had fun staying on the River walk. Today I'm back at work...LAME! A few updates on the pregnancy:

Symptoms: Morning, Afternoon, and ALL DAY sickness started around week 7. I threw up about 8 times in two days when I finally gave in to my new found best friend: ZOFRAN. This stuff works. I haven't even felt sick at all today which is amazing! Since the day I started zofran I dry heaved a few times a day- but kept everything down. Been drinking Ginger-ale, eating ginger cookies, and crackers to help calm the stomach. I literally eat ALL day to help- I'm sure I'm gaining weight in all the wrong areas..:) Oh ya- I'm pretty sleepy all day- I could sleep 10 hours at night and still want a nap the next day!

CRAVINGS:

I learned that craving in your first trimester is just food that you can actually eat without vomiting. :) I have been OBSESSED with pickles- I have eaten HALF of the massive COSTCO size bottle of pickles! haha! I had pickles and waffles one night- So I guess that's a bit odd- and lately ALL I want is broccoli and Cheese Soup! YUMMM!!! But overall I just don't want anything sweet- like cookies and such- or anything too greasy. Somehow I am still NOT loosing weight though- haha

Baby's Milestones:

BABY is MOVING this week! Although I don't feel anything at all:) Oh and NO more tail on the baby! Which means hopefully next week's ultrasound will actually look like a baby. :)

Baby is growing nipples and hair follicles- His pancreas, gallbladder, bile ducts and anus are all in place, ready to poop and pee a dozen times a day when he's born. Baby is beginning to develop her hoo-ha or his wee-wee. Baby should be now 1-inch in length, about the size of a martini olive and weighs a mere 2 grams—a little less than a penny. Baby is also developing bones and muscles! SO amazing to me still that a baby is growing inside me!

BABY BUMP:

Um ya sorta- there is a bump all right but it's not from the baby most likley- haha- it's more from my poor healing ovaries still and probably eating too much- haha!

I get my 10 week ultrasound one week from today.:) I cannot WAIT to see how much little baby Tashjian has grown!

p.s. I find out if it's a girl or a boy in freakin 5 weeks!!!! I am like jumping out of my pants excited about this! :) I vote girl- of course Jonny votes for a boy...Really I think I will be happy with either! OH and CONGRATULATIONS to my good friend Sheila who did her first try of IVF and found out she is pregnant a few days ago!!! AGAIN- jumping out my pants excited!!! Happy Halloween Everyone!!! :) I am sending baby dust to everyone out there trying right now! Keep it positive people! If it can happen for me after 6- 7 years it can happen for you too!!!! :)

Oh and a picture of the baby from last week. :)

First Trip to the ER

Man this first trimester stuff has NOT been easy. I have now bled on two different occasions which BOTH scared the crap out of me. Dr. basically put me on bed rest for the day each time and then said don't worry unless it comes back. Everything had been fine since my last little bit of blood Monday night- until yesterday. I had the MOST random accident happen at work. I was sitting on some stairs after lunch talking with my mom on the phone when a man carrying a MASSIVE piece of glass to replace a window at UOP decided to try to struggle up the stairs by himself. He tripped on the step I was sitting on and the whole freakin piece of glass came crashing down on the both of us. My poor mom heard me scream super loud and then glass flew everywhere. Freaked the heck out of me!! I couldn't stop shaking for a while. The paramedic on site checked me out and told me to go a hospital to make sure the baby was okay. I went in the bathroom and glass was literally in my boots and clothes...crazy thing was I didn't get even ONE cut!! My hubby came to pick me up and take me to the er JUST to be safe. All I had was a headache and was a bit shaken up so I figured everything would be fine. The Er took FOREVER!!! It felt like the longest day! I woke up that morning at 5:30 to take my sisters maternity pictures in good lighting, went straight to work, and then straight to the ER...got home at freakin 10 pm! My body was exhausted! I got to do an ultrasound and see the baby's heart beat- it looked more like a baby this time for sure! They wouldn't allow my poor hubby in so he AGAIN had to miss it. Three hours later the dr came back and told me that the baby has a hemorrhage on the bottom of the sac which can be the first sign of miscarriage. I immediately had tears streaming down my face because I literally JUST saw a perfect little heartbeat (now 168 beats per minute) He said to stay off my feet for a few days to try to let it heal. SO, I am in bed with my lab top today instead of being at my baby sisters baby shower. That was rough. :( I go in Wednesday to see if it's healing which would be fantastic- other than that the baby was perfect! Yesterday measuring 7 weeks 4 days. :) Every little sneeze freaks me out right now because of all the stories online I read...not a good idea to research things online when you are already emotional and stressed. Jonny has banned me from reading online forums...haha! Overall I am doing good and I feel like baby will be just fine. A few days off my feet should do the trick. :)

Most Amazing Day

Today started out pretty bad. I haven't gotten much sleep lately- I would say that anxiety has hit me pretty bad keeping me up at all hours of the night. Last night was no exception. Couldn't sleep- my husband is out out of town for the day expecting to come home Friday to hear the heartbeat of our baby. I got out of bed at about 6 this morning and saw blood- it was brown and light but nevertheless scared the crap out of me. I called the Dr. as they opened this morning at 8 am and they asked me to come straight in. That got me even MORE nervous- and super sad since my husband wasn't going to be there for the first real ultrasound. I kept thinking I need him here if things go bad and I want him hear if things go right! LUCKILY things went REALLY well today. There is ONE baby in there- heartbeat was 114 beats per minute- I couldn't believe that tiny little heart was beating inside of me. Dr said look at the screen at that little flutter- that movement is the heartbeat! O my gosh- it made my heart melt to see that. Luckily he is still letting me keep my appt for tomorrow to go in again with my husband- I got pictures of the little one and pretty much cried the whole way home. I am SO relieved right now- I am SUPER overwhelmed with this happy feeling that everything is going to be okay. WHEW! And so there you have it folks- baby will be here June 6th 2012!! That will be a fabulous day!

My Golden Ticket

Thank you all for your comments and support! Le Dawn your comment truly hit home for me because it helped me realize how important it is to enjoy every moment of this pregnancy. I am 6 weeks now (CRAZY) and got my 3rd and final beta blood test today. The number was over 4,000 which the machine couldn't even detect it was so high-means I am hormonal and to probably be nice to me...haha! Really though I AM DETERMINED to enjoy this pregnancy the best way I can. I am finally back home from my billions of trips this last three weeks and am happy to settle into a normal schedule again. Next week (I chose Friday at 2 pm) I get to hear the heartbeat and see a picture! SERIOUSLY freaks me out! Also I get to see if it possibly split to TWO babies- I highly doubt it but you never know! God works in mysterious ways.:) I was SO bummed that I didn't get to watch conference last week and slowly am trying to watch the talks online. President Uchtdorf's talk "Forget Me Not" that I have heard SO much about was amazing! You can read it HERE- and SHOULD! So worth the extra time! He talks about being patient with yourself, understanding the difference between a good sacrifice and a foolish one, and being happy- so many good things I needed to hear. I think we all feel that negative self talk in our heads "If I could just get married...get that new job...win that money...or have a BABY, life would be SO much better. I would FINALLY be happy." Unfortunately I spent the last 6 years or so always waiting for my "golden ticket" in life and forgot to be happy along the way. I definitely had a hard time waiting for this dang pregnancy so I am determined to not let that happen again.I truly want to feel connected and enjoy these next nine months or so...

A few things about my baby this week- He or hopefully SHE still looks like a tadpole- but is growing eyes, a mouth, and little arm buds! Her little heart is now beating and SHOULD be able to be detected at my OB appt this week! She is about the size of a chocolate sprinkle (YUM) and growing rapidly! As for me and MY symptoms- not really too much nausea luckily- however my boobs HURT so bad and feel massive- and I feel like I can't keep my eyes open all day, and pregnancy brain has kicked in in high gear! I can't remember ANYTHING for the life of me! I start work again on Monday so I only have a few more cherished FMLA days and during that time Jon and I have been house hunting! We are getting back into a house for the baby in the next 3- 4 weeks! Exciting but exhausting stuff going on! Now check out this cute book I want to make:

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