Hey guys I'm back! Today is my first day I have had a few hours to myself- and it's my husbands birthday! I am an awesome wife and sent him away golfing. (Sounds like more of a gift to me to get a few hours alone but I swear he likes it!) We have been out of town and when we finally got home we bought a house!! That has had us running ALL over getting ideas on what we want to do to this new place :)
All of the sudden out of nowhere I have been getting THE QUESTION- the one I despised hearing before having Deklan- When are you guys gonna try for number two?? Okay I don't HATE the question as much anymore- but I do feel the pressure. Truth is we were never really preventing. This month is the first month I can honestly say we are "trying." Meaning attempt to count days of the month and such. Because of our previous experience I get nervous counting days. I don't like the idea of testing at the end of the month and possibly getting a negative pregnancy test. Strange thing is if I was still pregnant right now and had not miscarried I would have another newborn here in 20 weeks. Crazy to think about, and I honestly try not to.
So here we are again. The infertility thoughts of being inadequate are slowly creeping in. My plan is to count days and track my cycle for a few months and see how it goes. I have been regular since Deklan which is totally abnormal for me. If it doesn't work we will go back to the fertility specialist for round two of in vitro. The thought I could get pregnant again in the next year excites me now! I am excited to experience it all over again. I would kinda like to skip this part and go straight to in vitro. It's SO SO hard on your body- but trying to get pregnant the old fashioned way is SO SO hard on your emotions. With in vitro it's all science. The natural way of trying to get pregnant is scary territory for me. Truth be told I am the happiest I have ever been in my life so I hate to ruin it with trying again. At the same time I WANT MORE BABIES! Deklan is amazing! More amazing than I could have imagined- and I am grateful to have such a precious miracle. I have watched so many of you have your miracle babies, and some of you still struggle or are newly pregnant. This has been such a crazy ride- who's in for round 2???? 2 weeks till my next period....I already feel drained.
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2 years ago
Happy Birthday to your hubs! And yay for trying for #2 :) I hope you won't need any medical intervention and you can get pregnant on your own. Either way, I'm so excited for you guys!!! Keep us posted :)
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday to your hubby. Hope he had a great day. THE question always throws me off a little... I'm just not sure I'm ready to hear it all the time :) Keeping my fingers crossed for you!
ReplyDeleteHow exciting! I'm sure you are dreading the "two week waiting periods" starting again, but what a wonderful time in your life! Good luck to you!
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I hear you on the pressure thing, everyone knows about my PCOS and the fact that my husband and I have been through surgeries for me, and all sorts of other things. But my husband has been deployed for the last year, and will be home soon! But already people have started asking "so are you guys going to get pregnant when he gets back?" My mom even bought baby clothes...Just makes it worse since my sister in law is going through IVF right now.
ReplyDeleteI am glad to hear you are doing well though, and keep your chin up!
-Mandi
I'm so excited for you guys! Keep us updated :) It's funny because most people ask us when we're going to try for number three as a joke...then they act all shocked when I say that we are hoping and planning for a third... Oh well, everybody has an opinion, right? I hope you get pregnant soon, and maybe I'll be joining you this spring!
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