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Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Real Quick...

Any of you already moms know of the best sling I should be getting for the baby?? I just ordered the "free" udder cover most of you know about. If you don't go HERE and the promo code is "Family2011" You pay $11.95 in shipping but the cover is free. I got the "Jones" cover which is a blue and white material. I have seen good reviews on these and went ahead and got one. They don't have the cutest materials but you can't beat the price!

Now I found THIS website called Seven Slings- along the same lines here you pay for shipping and can use the same promo code- has anyone used this sling before?? I thought about ordering the black and white one. However I am wondering if those "Bojourn Baby" carriers are better- or the REALLY comfy looking slings that are super long but you have to figure out how to wrap it around your whole body- I think they are called Moby Wraps? They are like $60 though!!! Before I order this sling I wanted to check and see if anyone has any reviews on these things??

Sunday, December 25, 2011

Santa Brought this Year....

Gas pains, headaches, and constipation- nice I know...

If you wish to see our Christmas this year you can click HERE to see pics :)

Please feel free to skip the pregnancy journal part if you are not interested- but here it is :

How Far Along:
I am now officially 17 WEEKS tomorrow! Holy cow that sounds SO strange to me-

Baby Updates:

*Baby is 5 inches Long
*Declan now weighs a hefty 4 ounces -As much as a turnip- (His weight will increase SIX TIMES in the next 4 weeks) I am guessing I can expect some weight gain for me too :)
* Loud noises outside the womb can now startle the baby- I guess that means he can hear me now!!! CRAZY!

Symptoms: Weird dreams. HEADACHE, constipation, nausea, and MORE HEADACHES. I won't expand too much on this because I truly do hate to complain- as much as I do it...this has been a rough pregnancy (however I am grateful for EVERY moment of it) We will just say I was vomiting A LOT (including ALL fluids and almost did an ER run this week) Felt too sick to go and tried to sleep it off. Jon got a NASTY picture of me with throw up that somehow ended up all over my clothes hair, face, name it- it got EVERYWHERE!

Belly and Weight Gain: I enjoy this one so much because every person is so different and when you look online of what you are "supposed" to look like at this stage you either feel REALLY fat or really too small. Take these two gals for instance who are both first time moms, 17 weeks along, and look completely opposite- what the heck! (Neither of these are me by the way- I will try to post one soon :) As for me- I lost a few pounds this week from the throwing up but I'm sure will gain it RIGHT back with all of the Christmas goodies- belly is growing and I DID get some maternity clothes for Christmas (AND my diaper bag I wanted) thank goodness :)

Monday, December 19, 2011

Need Some Advice Ladies

I REALLY had my heart set on white furniture for my nursery from the beginning. Granted- I was positive it was a girl, so white furniture fit perfectly. When I found out it was a boy- and my world was turned a little upside down my husband started to want to be REALLY involved in creating the perfect nursery for his son. He thinks white furniture is girlie- BUT was willing to compromise if I compromised some of my other ideas I had- making the room NOT really what I planned on at all. So here is the real question- do I give in?? I found a nursery room WITH the dark furniture and REALLY cute colors that I think I could make SUPER cute...the husband would be happy and thus no more complaints of the "girlie" room- or do I stick to my guns because I AM the woman of the house and therefore SHOULD make the decisions on the nursery. Here is the room I found I like- I wouldn't be making it a "space" theme- but I loved the green stripes and the navy blues together... PLEASE ADVISE.

16 Weeks

I am posting these a little late but these are pics at 14 weeks at the ultrasound place when we found out we were having a boy. You can see the complete shock in my face and the OVER excitement in my I am getting used to the idea now and am thrilled for a little boy to be joining our family. I even changed my pink blog to blue to make it more appropriate :)My mom, sister, and best friend also joined in on watching the ultrasound that day.

Baby Talk: I am only 4 weeks away from Declan being HALF-WAY cooked. :)Baby is now 4.6 inches long (about the size of an avocado)and is finally gaining some weight this week! :)His legs are finally longer than his arms which mean an ultrasound will be MUCH more human like. :) My next one is not till 19 and a half weeks though so my hope is that he will start to look a little more like a baby and less like an alien! :) My doctor was nice enough (since I am a worry wort) to give me an EXTRA dr appt this week to hear the heartbeat and for him to make sure the baby is growing properly. I am super excited for that on Thursday.

Symptoms: Still dealing with occasional nausea, acne (so attractive), mood swings for sure, and some emotional moments. For instance my husband thought I was having dinner one night with my family (because I was) and he brought home a Freddy's hamburger and fries & shake and I cried because he didn't bring me any.....I realized moments after I was being ridiculous but still scowled at him the rest of the day. Seriously though I need to get my emotions in check- things that never used to bother me make me cry. RIDICULOUS.

My headaches right now are pretty bad and pretty much ALL DAY. HOWEVER, second trimester is MUCH better than the first thus far! My energy levels are much better and I am finally feeling like my belly "looks" a little more pregnant- I think my belly size has remained the same since BEFORE I was pregnant because of all the drugs. Before the belly was ALL ovaries...slowly my ovaries are recovering and the baby is GROWING! My last belly picture looks the same if not LARGER than this one- stinken ovaires...dealing with OHSS (overstimulated ovaries) was pretty much the worst part in this whole process. Glad they are healing!

It's probably about that time I need to go get some maternity jeans- just have been too busy with Christmas and planning the nursery. I LOVE seeing how excited Jonny is for his little boy- he wants to be a part of EVERYTHING (which can be annoying when it comes to decorating the nursery the way I WANT!) I think in the end it will be me to choose most everything- I am compromising on a "few" things though. He is going to make the cutest dad I already know. He comes to every appointment possible- records EVERY heartbeat he hears and video tapes pretty much every ultrasound. Whenever he see's a father and son together he get's all giddy and says "That's gonna be ME soon!" He is JUST as excited if not more so than I am (if that's even possible)We can't wait to snuggle our little man.

Here is the picture of the nursery thus far. We still have to paint and now go buy a brand new crib. If you didn't hear my nightmare story- here is the short version: I bought a pottery barn crib on craigslist for $200- it was the EXACT crib I wanted but for $400 less. I asked the lady if it was recalled or anything crazy like that- she claimed it wasn't- I put it together to find out it was- called pottery barn and they are now giving me $600 to go buy a BRAND NEW CRIB- whatever I want! Turned out in my favor! :)

I am pretty much THE WORST at taking belly shots. This is my second ever- at 16 weeks. I had a hard time justifying taking them since I felt it all looked the same but here it is. Sorry about the bad quality. My friend at work took them because she tries to remind me to take them since I don't.

Baby Declan has been making himself "known" as of late which I LOVE. My belly bumps into random things now and I am feeling little flutters (not a lot but a few)I cannot wait to feel him move more.

P.S. DO NOT watch birth videos 5 months before you know you have to give birth- I'm scared now...

And GOOD LUCK to all you ladies finding out in the next week about your BFP! I am seeing more and more good results and am so happy for ALL of you- sending baby dust your way! :)

Thursday, December 15, 2011

My Christmas List

This is a little (hint hint) to my husband...:)

I would like a new purple case for my awesome new phone (The Thunderbolt )

Of course I need the BEST Petunia Pickle Bottom Diaper Bag :)

And some cute maternity clothes since I have NONE thus far- literally...

And maybe a video camera for the baby- is that too much to ask?? :)

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

I think it's time

I think it's about that time I need to change the title of my blog- I have NO clue how to change the actual website link....any ideas???

Friday, December 9, 2011

Baby Declan Ultrasound at 14 Weeks

I know- looks like I have no life but being obsessed with baby Declan right now- don't judge- husband is sick and I have nothing better to do on my Friday night. :)

p.s Husband liked the room so it's a go- looks like I won't be blogging for a while :)

I did it!

I think. :) Holy cow I have been OBSESSING over colors and nursery ideas since I found out it was a boy. I had it ALLLL figured out for a girl so I felt a little out of sorts. So I have compiled my "ideas." Taking things from pinterest and all over to combine and make my perfect nursery. My only worry now is convincing the husband that it is "manly" enough.He still doesn't like the idea of his boy sleeping in a room of white furniture- I REALLY didn't want brown and blue- it can be cute but is overdone. BUT I found something with what I think is a decent compromise. There were a few others I liked more that were too "feminine" in his eyes...SO here we go:

FIRST: The walls: I already have a white border that is around the center of the room- Jonny found a ways to make the wall LOOK like bead board (Thank you Bailey) and then we can paint it gray- THIS is to add the manly look and I STILL get my white crib! I would ALSO paint the walls that light blue on top- it would be more paint than what is in this picture though because of where the border is right now. Again- JUST pay attention to the walls in this picture. :)

THEN this: I have LOVED this cute saying and picture I found on a friends blog because of all the infertility stuff we have been through! I would of course paint the outside with probably gray and put it on the blue wall somewhere. :)

And Maybe incorporate this cute saying somehow with some vinyl lettering or Subway art:

AND my FAVORITE is that sign below- the canvas that says "You make me Happy When Skies are Gray" I want it- maybe even with the yellow to incorperate some other colors than blue and gray- so maybe tid bits of light green and yellow OH and BURLAP- LOTS and LOTS of burlap

Of course I will add some fun curtains and other things- I thought it would be fun to maybe paint these shutters- not sure what color yet- SOMEHOW to make them coordinate (blue, green, yellow) and keep the letters that tan to tie all the fun burlap in- I still don't know what bedding I will use- something that matches and is unique- I also still need some of the furniture and the chair- but I THINK I have finally narrowed down the colors enough where I can get to work on my project...:) LOTS of work to do in the next five months or so- wish me luck! :)

At this point I have NO clue if this will come together the way my mind is imagining it- OR if my husband will happen to agree with my ideas- BUT it's a start! Have to start somewhere right?!

Thursday, December 8, 2011

A Few Things That Made me Smile

Sorry about yesterdays "angry post" I think I needed a good pick me up today after the past few days being so sad- that and my house has been a bit dreary as of late. My poor husband had a temp of 103 degrees and of course won't let me get near him because of the babe. It was kind of cute actually- he was SUPER sick and sad- had the chills and such so I gave him our bear with our sons heartbeat- he listened to it over and over and got a big smile on his face. I think he always felt a little awkward touching my belly (since the baby was so small) and talking to it UNTIL he found out it was a boy- now he can't get enough of his little son. He may be forcing me to sell the white crib and go for dark furniture in the nursery (since his boy is MANLY- no white furniture he says) We will see about that. Argument is still going on this one. :)

SO- I pulled out my patriarchal blessing- which I had read HUNDREDS of times before I got pregnant. I always had a hard time interpreting the "Mother in Zion" part- assuming that meant- you will be a mom in heaven not here...sorry. NOW- I am re reading these with all new meanings- and each of them make me smile. :)

I obviously won't read my whole things to you since it's somewhat private and definitley sacred to me- but a few things that made me excited (in shortened version) were these:

"You are called to be a mother in Zion, mother of a righteous posterity, who will be influenced by your example. The Lord will strengthen you and make you equal to all that you are called to do."

"If you teach and nurture my children in their tender years and in their youth, they may be fortified to withstand the influences of the false values promoted by the evil one."

"Always have a love for him (my spouse obviously) that you may be united and able to overcome any disagreements that you may encounter so that the spirit of peace and harmony may prevail in your home, which will be the greatest blessing you can give to your children."

Now for those of you that are not LDS you can read my beliefs on the right side of my page where it says "My Faith." I am not sure how I would have survived the trials I did without this in my life. This also reminded me that no matter what that it's so important to make my husband's and my relationship a top priority- if we are doing good it just makes the environment so good for the baby! FINALLY getting pregnant you start to realize what's important and what you HAVE to put first to make your child's life so special. Gotta love my angry post to a mushy post- haha THAT would be hormones...:) If you are interested in my "angry post" read below. :)

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Feeling a little Blue

I wrote this a few days ago- I think my emotions probably got the best of me- feeling much better today and realizing how blessed I truly am. I can't let the old infertility feelings creep up right now because I FINALLY have my little blessing on the way- thought I would still share though. I'm sure some of you gals that are NOW pregnant after LOTS of trying can relate. I literally cried a lot yesterday- and even this morning thinking about the hurt- but I am trying hard to let it go.


I am truly wondering if the pain EVER goes away when you deal with infertility. I know I have said this before- being on the opposite side of the spectrum (the pregnant spectrum) is much harder than I thought. I am so excited to be pregnant- want to share every moment with every person! I also remember ALL the pain that went along with a BFN. I still have lots of readers (if they are STILL even reading at this point) waiting for their BFP still. Waiting for those two beautiful lines that feel so far away. It breaks my heart and I literally ache inside for every one of you. I feel a little on the outside now- like I CAN'T be that person who could always give an infertile girl a pick me up- "Don't worry- I have tried for seven years and cry EVERY TIME I hear an announcement." Or can tell an embarrassing story of MEAN things I have said to nosey people. Or talk about my hate of pregnant women...yes I know I was THAT girl. Read some of my previous posts to prove it. :) I have only been pregnant 4 months- this still feels new to me and I STILL ACHE for each of you! Obviously this is not about me- this is about YOU now- I just WISH and want so badly to be THAT person for you to go to still- that you can know without a doubt that I know that pain all too well. As a friend of mine told me she was struggling I wanted to make it ALL better- and know I can't. I know sometimes you need space, or can't talk about it, and that is OKAY. Part of me wonders if I should stop with the blog- just make my own journal. I guess I am just feeling a bit blue today- I WANT to make things better. I hated hearing YOUR NEXT- because you don't truly believe it in your heart. Just so many feelings- I feel in limbo and helpless- and like a TRAITOR- heading to the dark side- and there is nothing I can do to change it. :( And to be honest I feel a little upset that I all the sudden MUST NOT understand infertility because I'm pregnant- To be fair: Let's review....7 years of infertility- and TRYING pretty much the whole time- gives me a pretty darn good idea of what it feels like. I took HUNDREDS of pregnancy tests with no POSITIVES in site- I went through FOUR treatments of IVF- 7 months of chlomed and other drugs- and years of doing herbs, changing my lifestyle, standing on my head, praying, fasting, and hoping. So in closing to all of this- I feel I deserve to be REALLY happy- and yes I still remember what the pain feels like and ALWAYS will- it stings worse than anything imaginable.

Wow- rereading that I feel a bit harsh- I am hoping some of you can relate- I am just wondering if I will ever be able to help girls going through infertility again- Can I help them hope?? Or is that part of my life all over- just strange how quick things change- and how HARD change is. Even when you are super happy and been praying for so long for it.

Pictures of baby Declan

Okay yesterday was a STRESSFUL yet magical day. I literally couldn't sleep all night the night before - was WAY too excited! The next morning I woke up early like it was Christmas morning- no kidding- I was MORE excited than I ever was Christmas morning- plus it was cold out, the heater was on, I was snuggled up in boots and a coat, and running around the house telling Jonny to hurry because I didn't want to be even a minute late. I was SO nervous- I ended up drinking caffeine in HOPES that would help him not be shy...I learned something yesterday- it's SUGAR I should have had. I had a NON sugary caffeinated drink which did nothing. My little boy was comfy as he could be in my womb and was probably mad we were poking and prodding at his little home.

My mom, sister (who JUST had a baby a week ago), my hubby of course and my BEST friend all came with! When we got into the office the lady who worked there kept saying- UMMM it may be too early to tell and "You should do the cheaper package because it will look like an alien and not be worth it." I'm like REALLY lady? I am willing to pay you more money so be quiet and let me enjoy my moment! I KNEW what a 14 week ultrasound looked like- but I didn't want a picture of just his man part and then to be kicked out (which is what they do with the cheaper package) At first I was worried I should have done the cheaper one, however when I got home and REplayed the video of my little BOY on the tv...I cried and realized it was worth every penny. One day he will LOVE it! I love being able to see pictures from the CELLULAR form and up- and want as many pictures as I can get! This kid will be spoiled rotten I'm sure!

I will save you all the "dirty" BOY picture- but I can assure you it was a BOY indeed! My initial reaction was COMPLETE shock! I was like ummmm- are you SURE that is not an arm !? The best part of all of this was seeing my husband's reaction- he was totally shocked and EXCITED! It's literally ALL he talked about all day- Camping trips, how he already has his first gun, video games, transformers and toys, hunting, and ALL that fun stuff he get's to do with his son. He was a proud daddy- in fact he went out and the FIRST thing he did was go buy him a recliner that was made of leather- totally ridiculous and won't fit into my nursery ideas but I couldn't say no to him.

He lit up like it was Christmas and had a glow ALL day about his mini me. It totally melted my heart when I talked to a lot of the other moms about boys- getting SO excited now for a cuddly little boy, getting to have a little missionary, having to watch toy story 8,000 times in a day, and seeing Jonny as he LOVES on his son. Having a little boy cousin 6 months apart means they will be the BEST of friends as well! That day though we went home and had the walk through on our apartment- LAST DAY! YAY! Then was stuck unpacking, hanging stuff up, and cleaning the house for the party. The party was PURE CHAOS! Not gonna lie- I should have planned a little better because the gender announcement was a bit anticlimactic with all the children running around- LOVE them all- but Chaotic! Got me a little nervous for my boy- haha! By the time everyone left- (SUPER late) I felt like I had ran a marathon I was so exhausted- but STILL couldn't sleep with the excitement for a while- PLUS my husband had a fever and was getting sick. Awesome.

My sister was late but we finally announced it by having the kids uncover the blue balloons in a big box and watching the video- I will try to post the video a little later but MOST had already figured it out from the video- his poke was hard to miss...haha! Today I am excited to start looking EVERYWHERE for baby ideas- still in shock it's a boy. :) Makes me smile just thinking about it. And to the little bean pictures I love so much!

Here is him when he was finally kicking his legs around- he must have been VERY sleepy :)

He is maybe sucking his thumb here? I have NO idea- he kept his hands touching his face a lot of the time...

You can kind of see his little eyes here- I know these are all a little ALien but he has grown SO much in 4 weeks!

Covering his face and showing off his cute ear!

In a little ball :)
Here is him stretching out his legs- So funny!

CRAZIEST feeling last night! Had to share to document it: I have obviously NEVER been pregnant before- so I have NO idea what a baby feels like when it moves. I thought I felt SOMETHING the past two weeks a few times- but had NO idea what it was. Last night I was SURE and was amazed at what it felt like! I was sleeping and move around A LOT! Ask my husband- I somehow was sleeping on my tummy- which the doctor told me was fine and could happen but IF the blood supply was cut off for even a moment it would wake me up out of my sleep and NOT feel good. Well it happened- haha I was sleeping on my tummy -literally woke up with a pain on my right side. I felt it and it was hard- felt like it MUST have been the baby's sac because the left side was squishy- I was a little freaked because it wasn't going away so I naturally went to my computer at 4 this morning and looked it up. As I was reading random things I FELT what felt like a WORM swim across to the middle of my belly! I was TOTALLY freaked and it felt SO strange!!!! I didn't believe it- but I felt down and that sac on my right side was gone and it was squishy and normal again!!! OH MY GOSH- it was MY baby!!!! hahaha! It was SO strange- I woke Jonny up to to feel my right side and he felt it after and was totally amazed! I am SOO excited to start feeling the little movements now FINALLY! 14 weeks and SO thrilled to be feeling A BABY INSIDE ME! Still freaks me out- STILL IN SHOCK I am pregnant and have a little baby boy joining our family! Just can't wait to meet him. :) Sorry for the long post- I commend you for reading it all if you did. :)

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Drum Roll Please..

It's a










DECLAN! We are having a little boyfriend!!! Busy day today so pictures and video to follow- we are SUPER excited though! I was shocked, thrilled, overwhelmed, AHHH so many emotions I can't even think of anything else but this little BOY I get to hold in 6 months and cuddle :) Wanted to quickly share the news- LOTS to update soon :)

Monday, December 5, 2011

Good Info for those of you with PCOS

Even though I'm pregnant now- I still have to make sure to keep my PCOS in check- especially for the fact I would LIKE to try to get pregnant naturally after this one. :)Unfortunately the anxiety STILL get's to me- here are some ways to cope I found:) I get this awesome newsletter about PCOS each month- thought I would share when I find some good information.

How's Your Mental Health?

I suspect you know this even if your doctor doesn't: A major part of your PCOS disorder is psychological and emotional.

I don't have to describe the distress, suffering, frustration, embarrassment, desperation and hopelessness many of you are experiencing. You know exactly what I'm talking about.

You are not alone, according to emerging research. For example, the University of Iowa Roy J. and Lucille A. Carver College of Medicine studied 60 PCOS women over 22 months. 40% were depressed, 17% had major depressive disorder or other depressive syndromes. This rate might have been worse but 23% of the women were taking anti-depressants.

11.6% had anxiety syndromes, and 23.3% had binge eating disorder.

56.6% of all the women had some kind of mood disorder. The Iowa researchers also noted that 18% of the women did not start out depressed but became depressed after 22 months.

They also said menstrual function, fertility and body image (weight, hirsutism, acne) were the same among both the depressed and non-depressed women. So, surprisingly, these features were not the apparent cause of the mood disorders.

In another important study, the Karolinska Institute in Sweden reported a strong association between PCOS and anxiety. They compared 30 women with PCOS to 30 women who did not have PCOS. The groups were matched for age, weight, and body mass index.

They discovered that the PCOS women were much more anxious. Their most troublesome symptoms were reduced sleep, worry, phobias, and pain.

There's no question that polycystic ovary syndrome is actually both a physical and a mental disorder.

We can't just sweep the mental/emotional part under the rug and pretend it doesn't exist. There's an 800 lb. gorilla in the room and we all need to find ways to deal with it.

Your body and being is one whole. In your body, there is no separation between your physical parts and your mental/emotional parts. Your physical and mental aspects are in constant communication with each other and influence each other.

It should be obvious that a successful treatment program for polycystic ovary syndrome would include both physical and mental components.

But think back for a moment. When your doctor gave you a diagnosis, what did he or she do? Prescribe birth control pills, tell you to lose weight if overweight, and dart out the door to the next patient?

And what about your feelings? Your emotions? Your depression and anxiety? Your stress level? I'll bet these critical issues were never discussed or dealt with.

So it's really up to you. I encourage you to acknowledge the mental aspects of PCOS and find some ways of solving the issues of depression, anxiety, binge eating, etc.

Here are a few quick ideas to get you started.

1) Find a psychologist or other mental health professional to help you. You need to get outside your little bubble of isolation and helplessness. An experienced mental health professional can be very helpful to you and give you the support you need to make positive changes.

2) Take walks. Simple physical activity such as walking can relieve depression and anxiety, reduce the urge for compulsive eating, reduce stress, and more.

3) Keep a daily journal. Doing so will help you maintain greater awareness of what's going on in your life.

4) Find some good self-help books and read them. Maybe they will give you some good ideas. Example: "Learned Optimism: How to Change Your Mind and Your Life" by Martin Seligman, PhD.

5) Ask a health professional about nutritional supplements that may help with mood disorders. Two examples are: inositol and fish oil.

Whew....Heartbeat is there! :)

No sure why but I was feeling some EXTREME anxiety this past week about my Doctors appointment- It was like all the sudden I was KNOWING I needed to protect myself just in case! I hadn't been to a doctors appointment in a whole month! I didn't get an ultrasound today- but the sound of the heartbeat (140 beats per minute) eased ALL my fears in that moment. All weekend I was picturing all our families at the ultrasound and getting some sort of bad news- just anxiety getting the best of me! Glad I am feeling so much better today!

How Far Along: 14 weeks today (3 1/2 months now!!!)

Symptoms: Nausea is still here- but I THINK dying down a bit. Two days in a row I didn't take my Zofran till 4 in the afternoon ( A Miracle I tell you!) The next day it came back again in the morning full force so we will see. My headaches are getting so bad though they wake me up from my sleep! I have broken out like I am 12- and have to take docolax to help with "Regularity" all in all though I am a happy camper still!

Weight Gain: ONE pound! haha! Could be the nausea- This next few months though I can expect to pack on the pounds!

Best Moment of the week: So far- hearing the heartbeat this morning. I have a feeling finding out the gender tomorrow though will be at the top of my list!

Food Cravings: Sour skittles this week :)

What I miss: Nothing really! Maybe I miss not getting headaches and the nausea- just a little bit :)

What I am looking Forward too: TOMORROW!!!! SO excited to know if this little bean is a girl or a boy! Then I can start figuring out nursery colors- decor- buy clothing- register and all that fun stuff!

BABY: Baby is the size of a LEMON! Only weighs one and a half ounces but it 3 and a half inches long. Baby is one third of the way done cooking now. Baby is all done with the big stuff like the organs so this week it's working on building up some fat. He or she even has fingerprints now! Baby continues to gain new and impressive skills such as practicing and controlling voluntary muscle movements. My tiny dancer's movements are no longer the jerky, uncontrollable twitches of yore—she now moves with graceful control. He or she??? We will know tomorrow...stay tuned!

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Taking a Poll??

Okay I am taking a poll on the right- what do you guys think I am having- It is KILLING me at this point! I was SO positive it was a girl until we picked an actual boy name- now I have NO clue! Just a few more days till the big reveal! I am getting SO excited I can't stand it! 5 more days! I still can't believe I am almost 14 weeks!! My baby is a size of a PEACH this week- a lemon next week! I am wondering when the whole nesting phase comes in- mine has NOT hit yet- I am SO exhausted by the end of the day that I would LOVE to just be lazy and sleep- unfortunately moving is forcing me to go through LOTS of boxes! I need this phase to kick in early....:)

P.S. I bought some bella bands this weekend. LOVE them. Really good purchase so you can stay in your cute jeans- Holy cow tried to find maternity pants and it was a nightmare- they are ALL so ugly- anyone know of CUTE maternity clothes?? There has to be something good out there!

Tuesday, November 29, 2011


Baby Boy made his arrival late last night- to check out more ADORABLE pics of my sisters little one click HERE. :)

Saturday, November 26, 2011

Second Trimester (13 weeks down)

Yes- that's right...I MADE IT! Okay I think I have at least- I have been somewhat freaking out about the fact I haven't really been to the doctor in weeks- I was tempted to buy a doppler, and then I realized if I can't find the heartbeat myself I would freak out even more! Luckily I only have one WEEK till my next appt! Next Monday I get to hear the heartbeat again and see my regular OB, Tuesday of next week I get an ultrasound to HOPEFULLY find out the gender of my little peanut! I am actually warming up to the idea this COULD possibly be a little boy. Jonny and I narrowed down my name list and when I finally figured out a boy name it hit me that I would SO be okay with a girl or a boy. SO- here are the names thus far:

IF it's a boy:

Declan (unsure of middle name) Maybe Gray??

If it's a GIRL:

London Brielle

Jonny picked London and loves it- I have ALWAYS wanted the name Brielle (Still debating because I think it's worthy of a first name)

We also like Hudson for a boy and Brielle Rose for a girl. (Rose because that was my nick name from my dad so it means a lot to me) So- which one will it be...Declan or London??? 7 more LONG days till we know. :)

As for Black Friday- it was a success! We got all sorts of good stuff- as for the baby- I don't think he/she liked Black Friday so much. I literally threw up out side of EVERY store we went to...not kidding. Target, Michaels, Sears, Spencers, Bed, Bath and Beyond...I had a total breakdown after Bed, Bath, and Beyond- first one since all this nausea stuff started. I would usually catch myself before complaining about it- even with my husband. I couldn't stand those pregnant ladies complaining because I wanted it SO badly! So every time I would get sick- I would say: I hate...I mean I love this part of pregnancy. Then yesterday when I got the car and dealt with dry heaving pretty violently the whole way there- people staring- I started balling- and then I said it....

I am SO tired of being sick!! It's not fair- I HATE this part of pregnancy! I felt so guilty- but SO much better after saying it out loud. My husband gave me a hug, got me the dinner I wanted, and took me home to watch a movie and relax. I think every once in a while you need to just cry it out. I was tired, running on NO sleep, and was shopping all day- pure exhaustion! Was it worth it? I dunno- I got lots of good stuff for good prices! I even grabbed stuff I didn't need at all because everyone ELSE was grabbing it as quick as they could- figured it MUST be of value! I am just grateful I didn't get trompled, pepper sprayed, or shot. :)

Exciting News of the Day:

My sister is AT the hospital!!!! She is going to be given pitocin (however you spell that) at 3:30!! She has been there since late last night! SO excited to meet and hold my little nephew! I already know I am in love with this little guy!

One other exciting thing: I felt butterflies a few times this week- not sure if it's the baby- but I cannot WAIT to feel him/ her moving in there!!!

Thursday, November 24, 2011


Happy Thanksgiving!!!!! Read about what I am grateful for HERE. :) Happy Turkey Day!

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Infertility Competition

I think this video makes me laugh because there is always SO much competition between women- pregnant women, women with kids, and even women without children- I will be honest though- I think when you go through infertility you honestly WANT fertility treatments to work for every girl. When you go through such a LONG hard process you wouldn't wish it on anyone...BUT there are always THOSE girls who compete at everything. I couldn't help but laugh when I saw this and had to share. :) Those of you who have been through treatments and understand all the terms will love it- enjoy. :)

Monday, November 21, 2011


I got my crib this weekend! I was so excited!! I looked all over and found this sleigh crib at pottery barn that I loved! I couldn't really justify spending $600 on the crib alone though- I kept thinking of the billions of things that I have to buy in the next 6 months! So I decided to type in the EXACT crib on craigslist assuming there is NO way I would find it...I was wrong! A lady bought it brand new- barley used it and was getting rid of it for $200! I called her right away- drove to Scottsdale and picked it up! It literally worked out perfect! I now have this and the hutch and the room- now two weeks before I can pick paint colors. :)

Now what I REALLY want is this:

I think $1400 is a little much for a a changing table- we'll see- I do feel I deserve the best nursery of all time so MAYBE I can convince the husband...maybe. :)

Onto other things:

I am 12 weeks now. Ran out of zofran because my stinken insurance was not wanting to cover those meds- been sick ALL weekend while moving- but am thrilled to know I have a bottle of Zofran all ready for me to FINALLY pick up tonight- WHEW! My baby is now the size of a PLUM! Crazy! 12 weeks down and 28 to go! Starting next week it can suck it's thumb! AHHH- that is so cute to me! I can't even believe it! I am in the LAST week of my first trimester- I feel as though it's flying by- even though I've been sick- I've also kept busy. :) The days I do feel nauseated all I can think is how much I could use a break- but when I FINALLY start getting a break I freak out wondering if baby is okay- haha! This is the longest I have gone without a check up so every once in a while I get nervous. I have my next OB appointment December 5th and the gender appt December 6th! Whomever would like to join we are having a small "gender revealing/house warming" party on December 6th.

On Another Note:

One of my readers (Heather) :) Is a mom to a cute 6 year old girl. She was diagnosed with Mesothelioma (A type of cancer that kills 90- 95 % of those who have it when her baby girl was only 3 months old! She is now a survivor of this cancer- 6 years later and wants to share her story with others! I thought her story is inspirational and has the potential to help others. You can click HERE to read about the struggles she went through as a new mom with cancer. Best of luck Heather and thanks for reaching out!!


Diana, I hope you don't mind- I am adding a link to your blog- You guys will NOT believe this video- honestly CRAZY!!! Check this out over at another friends blog! This is for REAL- I couldn't believe it! Who could POSSIBLY do this to a tiny little baby?!!!

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Never Fails to Amuse Me

I am realizing that it doesn't matter- pregnant...not pregnant...fertile...infertile- you will NEVER get away from amusing comments from random people. :) Now that everyone pretty much knows I'm pregnant- people HAVE to put put in there two cents on the subject. DON'T get me wrong- I have never been pregnant- so this is all new and I need all the advice I can get- I just love the ones that literally TELL you what to do. Example: Friend today at work notices nail polish remover at my desk- totally FREAKS out! You are NOT allowed to do your nails AT ALL when you're pregnant- OR get your hair done- OR drink ANY soda WHATSOEVER- oh boy. I have done LOTS of research obviously on what's okay and what's not okay and ultimately had to make the choice for myself. So yes- I think it's okay to do your nails and hair every so often- I am not saying I am going to BREATH in the fumes as much as possible- just that I think it's okay every once in a while. I get bad headaches unfortunately as a side effect from the nausea medication- awesome! So IF I need it I will drink a soda and take a Tylenol. Again this is not ALL day long and the only thing I drink. SO shoot me! I have a feeling this will get worse as I go- like the WHOA you look like you are having TWINS comment- I think everyone get's that at least once in their pregnancy so I've heard- not looking forward to that one.

Kicker on all this: girl who got mad about the nail polish is 6 weeks pregnant...and smoking. LOVE her...but really?

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

A Normal Pregnant Lady...

What a happy day today was- I seriously wanted to throw myself a party- as of today I am a full blown just NORMAL pregnant lady! Can you believe it? I got to stop the patches, the vaginal suppositories, ALL the nasty hormones that were added to my already pregnant hormones! My hope is that ending the progesterone might help with the least that's my HOPE!! Okay- so a few friends have asked for a belly picture- I have been WAY too embarrassed to post pictures of belly as of now- to be honest I think it's mainly because I have felt like I like the same for the past 11 weeks- FAT! I always thought I would be SO proud of my growing bump- unfortunately when you have to produce 30 plus eggs, and be pumped up with drugs for two months BEFORE you're pregnant- it's hard to tell what is a cute little baby bump and what's not...haha! BUT- I finally agreed to take my FIRST pregnancy shot at 11 weeks along- I figure even if it stays that way a while I will want to compare it for the next babies to come- so for your viewing pleasure (ah hem: please don't make fun)

Here I am in all my glory- not too flattering I know- In all honesty my boobs have probably grown more than my belly has- that's a plus! The ladies had been needing some help up there if you know what I mean.

No this was not me after eating some massive meal- I am not sure if you are supposed to "show" this early- could be just bloating- but there ya have it folks :)

Fun Stuff: I got my first piece of furniture for the baby room FOR FREE from my Mother in Law (Thank you very much! ) I think it's fun and vintage and can't wait to doll it up for the room!

I officially have the keys to my new house and have been thinking of ideas of what to do with the room...especially because I find out in 3 WEEKS from today what I am having!!!! I seriously can't believe it! My baby this week is the size of a LIME!

What in the world? Sounds ginormous to me!! Baby is now 2 inches in length! Oh and he or she is busy playing games with her face and mouth and doing somersaults all day- OH the life of a fetus! In the next nine weeks, Baby Tashjian will increase 30 times in weight and almost triple in length! Baby is growing like CRAZY right now!

Meanwhile mom is still dealing with the occasional nausea..ya know the RUN outside of Costco and throw up on the ground kind...that was awesome :) I am ALMOST in my second trimester so WHAT the heck...when does this end?!!! Until then I am eating dozens of pickles and trying to stay awake all day at work :) I am curious still about this "pregnancy glow" everyone talks about- I would more call it a pregnancy LOW in the beginning- but HEY I am enjoying every minute of it. I am getting more and more excited everyday- and I am THRILLED that so many of my friends dealing with infertility are getting their BFP (Big Fat Positives) as well! Congrats to Sheila and Julie...and one of my other friends finds out tomorrow!!!! FINGERS crossed!!!! And my little nephew will be here in literally the next two weeks- can't wait to practice on him :)

Monday, November 7, 2011

One-Fourth Baked Baby

10 weeks down- 30 to go!!! I know it's early but I am already counting down- only 30 more weeks till our sweet baby is here!

My hormones are raging now and have wrecked havoc on my and my husband's emotional sanity.

Funny story on that:

I was being super grumpy a few nights ago- Jonny came in to give me a hug and accidentley burped in my face- which in turn caused me to do some serious dry heaving. He laughed, trying to find the humor- apologized, and I cried and looking back it was kinda funny, however in the moment I wanted to kill my husband. Moral of the story: Don't burp in a pregnant ladies face.

By the end of this week my little embryo is finally considered a "fetus." WOO HOO! Baby's brain will make an incredible 25,000 new neurons every minute this week. I swear I am loosing all my brain cells and neurons and the baby is taking them all! Baby weighs only 4 grams and measures 1½ inches, about the size of a prune. What's so strange to me is ALREADY all the little details like the baby's finger nails and little peach fuzz hair is already growing this week! It's like a tiny little miniature baby- haha so strange!he's swallowing and kicking all the time!

Side Effects: Besides being a bit tummy itches all the time and I am feeling some aches and pains, I am reading that is my stretching ligaments or something?? Nausea was SO bad yesterday- even WITH my nausea pills! All the normal side effects I suppose: headaches, constipation (TMI) I know. :)

Other good news: Set up my 14 week ultrasound to find out the sex of the baby- hope he/she is not shy! :) December 6th is the big day and I seriously can't wait! AND My due date got moved up to June 4th :)

My appt today: AMAZING. Not gonna lie- got a little teary eyed when I saw my baby moving! If you can see this video below you can see the baby's arm waving saying hi to mom and dad. Jonny and I were both freaking out for reals- I had NO idea I would see the baby move so much! She didn't catch the first part on video but it did a few body rolls- haha It was SO crazy to watch it's tiny little body move around! FINALLY got to hear the heartbeat! Most amazing sound ever- Jonny recorded it of course. We move in two weeks to our new home and I cannot WAIT to start the nursery!!!! Still in complete awe that this is really happening for us. :)

Monday, October 31, 2011

9 Weeks and Counting!

I seriously can't believe I am already nine weeks- (BARLEY 9 weeks- but STILL!) I still have a few more weeks before getting out of the "scary zone," but everyday I am starting to believe this more and more. My last ultra sound, taken at 8 weeks 1 day Jonny was able to be there- the look on his face was priceless. He was in awe of the little heartbeat on the screen and we both fell in love with this baby together. :) We left straight to San Antonio Texas after the ultra sound and had fun staying on the River walk. Today I'm back at work...LAME! A few updates on the pregnancy:

Symptoms: Morning, Afternoon, and ALL DAY sickness started around week 7. I threw up about 8 times in two days when I finally gave in to my new found best friend: ZOFRAN. This stuff works. I haven't even felt sick at all today which is amazing! Since the day I started zofran I dry heaved a few times a day- but kept everything down. Been drinking Ginger-ale, eating ginger cookies, and crackers to help calm the stomach. I literally eat ALL day to help- I'm sure I'm gaining weight in all the wrong areas..:) Oh ya- I'm pretty sleepy all day- I could sleep 10 hours at night and still want a nap the next day!


I learned that craving in your first trimester is just food that you can actually eat without vomiting. :) I have been OBSESSED with pickles- I have eaten HALF of the massive COSTCO size bottle of pickles! haha! I had pickles and waffles one night- So I guess that's a bit odd- and lately ALL I want is broccoli and Cheese Soup! YUMMM!!! But overall I just don't want anything sweet- like cookies and such- or anything too greasy. Somehow I am still NOT loosing weight though- haha

Baby's Milestones:

BABY is MOVING this week! Although I don't feel anything at all:) Oh and NO more tail on the baby! Which means hopefully next week's ultrasound will actually look like a baby. :)

Baby is growing nipples and hair follicles- His pancreas, gallbladder, bile ducts and anus are all in place, ready to poop and pee a dozen times a day when he's born. Baby is beginning to develop her hoo-ha or his wee-wee. Baby should be now 1-inch in length, about the size of a martini olive and weighs a mere 2 grams—a little less than a penny. Baby is also developing bones and muscles! SO amazing to me still that a baby is growing inside me!


Um ya sorta- there is a bump all right but it's not from the baby most likley- haha- it's more from my poor healing ovaries still and probably eating too much- haha!

I get my 10 week ultrasound one week from today.:) I cannot WAIT to see how much little baby Tashjian has grown!

p.s. I find out if it's a girl or a boy in freakin 5 weeks!!!! I am like jumping out of my pants excited about this! :) I vote girl- of course Jonny votes for a boy...Really I think I will be happy with either! OH and CONGRATULATIONS to my good friend Sheila who did her first try of IVF and found out she is pregnant a few days ago!!! AGAIN- jumping out my pants excited!!! Happy Halloween Everyone!!! :) I am sending baby dust to everyone out there trying right now! Keep it positive people! If it can happen for me after 6- 7 years it can happen for you too!!!! :)

Oh and a picture of the baby from last week. :)

Saturday, October 22, 2011

First Trip to the ER

Man this first trimester stuff has NOT been easy. I have now bled on two different occasions which BOTH scared the crap out of me. Dr. basically put me on bed rest for the day each time and then said don't worry unless it comes back. Everything had been fine since my last little bit of blood Monday night- until yesterday. I had the MOST random accident happen at work. I was sitting on some stairs after lunch talking with my mom on the phone when a man carrying a MASSIVE piece of glass to replace a window at UOP decided to try to struggle up the stairs by himself. He tripped on the step I was sitting on and the whole freakin piece of glass came crashing down on the both of us. My poor mom heard me scream super loud and then glass flew everywhere. Freaked the heck out of me!! I couldn't stop shaking for a while. The paramedic on site checked me out and told me to go a hospital to make sure the baby was okay. I went in the bathroom and glass was literally in my boots and clothes...crazy thing was I didn't get even ONE cut!! My hubby came to pick me up and take me to the er JUST to be safe. All I had was a headache and was a bit shaken up so I figured everything would be fine. The Er took FOREVER!!! It felt like the longest day! I woke up that morning at 5:30 to take my sisters maternity pictures in good lighting, went straight to work, and then straight to the home at freakin 10 pm! My body was exhausted! I got to do an ultrasound and see the baby's heart beat- it looked more like a baby this time for sure! They wouldn't allow my poor hubby in so he AGAIN had to miss it. Three hours later the dr came back and told me that the baby has a hemorrhage on the bottom of the sac which can be the first sign of miscarriage. I immediately had tears streaming down my face because I literally JUST saw a perfect little heartbeat (now 168 beats per minute) He said to stay off my feet for a few days to try to let it heal. SO, I am in bed with my lab top today instead of being at my baby sisters baby shower. That was rough. :( I go in Wednesday to see if it's healing which would be fantastic- other than that the baby was perfect! Yesterday measuring 7 weeks 4 days. :) Every little sneeze freaks me out right now because of all the stories online I read...not a good idea to research things online when you are already emotional and stressed. Jonny has banned me from reading online forums...haha! Overall I am doing good and I feel like baby will be just fine. A few days off my feet should do the trick. :)

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Most Amazing Day

Today started out pretty bad. I haven't gotten much sleep lately- I would say that anxiety has hit me pretty bad keeping me up at all hours of the night. Last night was no exception. Couldn't sleep- my husband is out out of town for the day expecting to come home Friday to hear the heartbeat of our baby. I got out of bed at about 6 this morning and saw blood- it was brown and light but nevertheless scared the crap out of me. I called the Dr. as they opened this morning at 8 am and they asked me to come straight in. That got me even MORE nervous- and super sad since my husband wasn't going to be there for the first real ultrasound. I kept thinking I need him here if things go bad and I want him hear if things go right! LUCKILY things went REALLY well today. There is ONE baby in there- heartbeat was 114 beats per minute- I couldn't believe that tiny little heart was beating inside of me. Dr said look at the screen at that little flutter- that movement is the heartbeat! O my gosh- it made my heart melt to see that. Luckily he is still letting me keep my appt for tomorrow to go in again with my husband- I got pictures of the little one and pretty much cried the whole way home. I am SO relieved right now- I am SUPER overwhelmed with this happy feeling that everything is going to be okay. WHEW! And so there you have it folks- baby will be here June 6th 2012!! That will be a fabulous day!

Saturday, October 8, 2011

My Golden Ticket

Thank you all for your comments and support! Le Dawn your comment truly hit home for me because it helped me realize how important it is to enjoy every moment of this pregnancy. I am 6 weeks now (CRAZY) and got my 3rd and final beta blood test today. The number was over 4,000 which the machine couldn't even detect it was so high-means I am hormonal and to probably be nice to me...haha! Really though I AM DETERMINED to enjoy this pregnancy the best way I can. I am finally back home from my billions of trips this last three weeks and am happy to settle into a normal schedule again. Next week (I chose Friday at 2 pm) I get to hear the heartbeat and see a picture! SERIOUSLY freaks me out! Also I get to see if it possibly split to TWO babies- I highly doubt it but you never know! God works in mysterious ways.:) I was SO bummed that I didn't get to watch conference last week and slowly am trying to watch the talks online. President Uchtdorf's talk "Forget Me Not" that I have heard SO much about was amazing! You can read it HERE- and SHOULD! So worth the extra time! He talks about being patient with yourself, understanding the difference between a good sacrifice and a foolish one, and being happy- so many good things I needed to hear. I think we all feel that negative self talk in our heads "If I could just get married...get that new that money...or have a BABY, life would be SO much better. I would FINALLY be happy." Unfortunately I spent the last 6 years or so always waiting for my "golden ticket" in life and forgot to be happy along the way. I definitely had a hard time waiting for this dang pregnancy so I am determined to not let that happen again.I truly want to feel connected and enjoy these next nine months or so...

6 Weeks Pregnant
A few things about my baby this week- He or hopefully SHE still looks like a tadpole- but is growing eyes, a mouth, and little arm buds! Her little heart is now beating and SHOULD be able to be detected at my OB appt this week! She is about the size of a chocolate sprinkle (YUM) and growing rapidly! As for me and MY symptoms- not really too much nausea luckily- however my boobs HURT so bad and feel massive- and I feel like I can't keep my eyes open all day, and pregnancy brain has kicked in in high gear! I can't remember ANYTHING for the life of me! I start work again on Monday so I only have a few more cherished FMLA days and during that time Jon and I have been house hunting! We are getting back into a house for the baby in the next 3- 4 weeks! Exciting but exhausting stuff going on! Now check out this cute book I want to make:

Thursday, September 29, 2011


My last post might have sounded like I'm not that excited. Swear I am- just in complete disbelief. It's a weird feeling- I have pictured this moment in my head for SO long- 7 year ALMOST!!! Instead of total excitement I am feeling a lot of fear- not sure if that's totally normal and maybe everyone feels that for a while- not really about being a mom- just to make sure I keep this baby and am doing everything I am supposed to. I haven't connected at all yet- in fact I almost can't say it out loud. "I'm pregnant." I think infertility lasts forever. Those painful feelings haunt you and follow you for a long time. I tried ya know "the natural way" tried MONTHS of chlomed. 4 IUI's, several different doctors, and got a negative pregnancy test every time. PLEASE don't take this as me being ungrateful- more that I am interested in YOUR experiences??Did you feel this way- did you have cramps- because I sure do- I keep "checking" to see if I started my period- because I MUST have. In 2 weeks when we get to hear the heartbeat I'm sure it will be different. Hopefully that REAL excitement of HOLY CRAP a baby is coming in nine months will hit me. For now I am in total disbelief. I was grateful to hear that my blood work came back again perfect! I got my blood taken on Friday morning to check my beta number. Doc said it should be around 150- 200 and it was 330!! YAY! So my body is doing what it's supposed to I think! :) I am naturally just trying to protect myself from possibly getting hurt.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Two Pink Lines

Hawaii was amazing- I was an anxious mess though and bought two pregnancy tests there that haunted me for days. Literally. Every morning I would wake up and stare at the tests and then think- NO Britt it's too early- you can wait this out. I read WAY to many online forums and was freakin myself out about everything.

I got a call Monday morning 5 am from the Doctors office (they forgot Hawaii is three hours earlier then Az- oops!!) and said well you can take a home pregnancy test if you want but if it's negative it could be wrong and be a little depressing...but if it's a positive then it's pretty much accurate- so I thought okay what the heck!!! I'll take it. If it's negative it's what I'm used to so I can handle it. I put a towel over the test and told Jonny to read it for me. He started laughing and said um babe there are TWO pink lines!! I literally was in shock for the next two days- took another one the next morning- still positive. My boobs freakin ached, I was needing afternoon naps in freakin Hawaii, and was peeing like every five minutes- STILL didn't believe it. I only told my sister Sara because I was in shock. This morning after a long red eye flight we went straight to the doctors who took out blood work- They called me around 2:00 ish- Definitley pregnant!!! :) Said my beta is a really high good number of 171 (he was looking for around 100 today he said)!!!! So to make a really long story short. I'm pregnant- and STILL don't believe it! I am only 4 weeks along so I DO know that this is just another hurdle- to get through the first trimester..but still SUPER excited!!!!! :)So here they are- the most BEAUTIFUL pink lines I have ever seen! :)Hawaii was not a bad place to find out. :) Now let's just pray this baby STICKS!!

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

My Little Fighter Embryo

I haven't posted these because I have been doing lots of this lately:

Thought I would post pictures of the morning of the transfer finally. Here we are in our get up- when you're doing an embryo transfer you literally can't wear makeup, perfumes, smelly hair products- nada- so we showered that morning (no lotions and potions) and headed over in comfy clothes. I took a Valium- an hour before to relax my uterus- it relaxed me enough to sleep the rest of the day though...guess I'm a lightweight. Here we are before the transfer.
When we got there the doctor came in and gave us a speech as promised on how many embryo's we SHOULD transfer. I sat in the room for 15 minutes and cried trying to decide. The embryologist gave me a picture of my embryos and said- this is your embryo- you want room for it to grow and be healthy. So that's what I did. I froze 7 other good embryo's. Dr. said it was enough for another 3 rounds of invitro (doing 2 each time) He said at his office 96% plus of the them survive after being defrosted (haha sounds so funny I froze my babies for later) Luckily those next few times I decide to do in vitro I don't have to go through stimulating more eggs (that was awful)
So here is the picture they gave us of the baby- crazy how that mass is the baby already forming- this was BEFORE it got implanted! The science is amazing to me! The Doctor puts this directly into my uterus- baby's job is then to hatch from it's outer layer and burry into the lining.

Jonny was in the room the whole time holding my hand- It was such a cool process to watch- we got to see on a big screen next to us where the doctor put the baby- so strange-
After the procedure I got lay on this table (sort of upside down) for a half hour. One of the hardest parts- having to pee like a race horse the whole time. I had to have a full bladder before the procedure- seriously thought I was going to pee my pants. Don't worry I didn't.

Here is the end result:

It takes nine days to find out if the embryo attached- the nine days after the transfer look like this:

5-Day Transfer

Days Past
Transfer (DPT)
Embryo Development
OneThe blastocyst begins to hatch out of its shell
TwoThe blastocyst continues to hatch out of its shell and begins to attach itself to the uterus
ThreeThe blastocyst attaches deeper into the uterine lining, beginning implantation
FourImplantation continues
FiveImplantation is complete, cells that will eventually become the placenta and fetus have begun to develop
SixHuman chorionic gonadotropin (hCG) starts to enter the blood stream
SevenFetal development continues and hCG continues to be secreted
EightFetal development continues and hCG continues to be secreted
NineLevels of hCG are now high enough to detect a pregnancy

This morning I got blood work done to check my hormone levels- I continue the progesterone shots in the butt (which is bruised) and wear estrogen patches- this continues till I am 12 weeks pregnant or start a period- so now I pray no period starts- I am hoping this embryo's a fighter! To keep my mind off that I leave for Hawaii bright and early tomorrow morning! :)