Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Sunday, December 25, 2011
Please feel free to skip the pregnancy journal part if you are not interested- but here it is :
How Far Along:
I am now officially 17 WEEKS tomorrow! Holy cow that sounds SO strange to me-
*Baby is 5 inches Long
*Declan now weighs a hefty 4 ounces -As much as a turnip- (His weight will increase SIX TIMES in the next 4 weeks) I am guessing I can expect some weight gain for me too :)
* Loud noises outside the womb can now startle the baby- I guess that means he can hear me now!!! CRAZY!
Symptoms: Weird dreams. HEADACHE, constipation, nausea, and MORE HEADACHES. I won't expand too much on this because I truly do hate to complain- as much as I do it...this has been a rough pregnancy (however I am grateful for EVERY moment of it) We will just say I was vomiting A LOT (including ALL fluids and almost did an ER run this week) Felt too sick to go and tried to sleep it off. Jon got a NASTY picture of me with throw up that somehow ended up all over my clothes hair, face, ...you name it- it got EVERYWHERE!
Belly and Weight Gain: I enjoy this one so much because every person is so different and when you look online of what you are "supposed" to look like at this stage you either feel REALLY fat or really too small. Take these two gals for instance who are both first time moms, 17 weeks along, and look completely opposite- what the heck! (Neither of these are me by the way- I will try to post one soon :) As for me- I lost a few pounds this week from the throwing up but I'm sure will gain it RIGHT back with all of the Christmas goodies- belly is growing and I DID get some maternity clothes for Christmas (AND my diaper bag I wanted) thank goodness :)
Monday, December 19, 2011
Baby Talk: I am only 4 weeks away from Declan being HALF-WAY cooked. :)Baby is now 4.6 inches long (about the size of an avocado)and is finally gaining some weight this week! :)His legs are finally longer than his arms which mean an ultrasound will be MUCH more human like. :) My next one is not till 19 and a half weeks though so my hope is that he will start to look a little more like a baby and less like an alien! :) My doctor was nice enough (since I am a worry wort) to give me an EXTRA dr appt this week to hear the heartbeat and for him to make sure the baby is growing properly. I am super excited for that on Thursday.
Symptoms: Still dealing with occasional nausea, acne (so attractive), mood swings for sure, and some emotional moments. For instance my husband thought I was having dinner one night with my family (because I was) and he brought home a Freddy's hamburger and fries & shake and I cried because he didn't bring me any.....I realized moments after I was being ridiculous but still scowled at him the rest of the day. Seriously though I need to get my emotions in check- things that never used to bother me make me cry. RIDICULOUS.
My headaches right now are pretty bad and pretty much ALL DAY. HOWEVER, second trimester is MUCH better than the first thus far! My energy levels are much better and I am finally feeling like my belly "looks" a little more pregnant- I think my belly size has remained the same since BEFORE I was pregnant because of all the drugs. Before the belly was ALL ovaries...slowly my ovaries are recovering and the baby is GROWING! My last belly picture looks the same if not LARGER than this one- stinken ovaires...dealing with OHSS (overstimulated ovaries) was pretty much the worst part in this whole process. Glad they are healing!
It's probably about that time I need to go get some maternity jeans- just have been too busy with Christmas and planning the nursery. I LOVE seeing how excited Jonny is for his little boy- he wants to be a part of EVERYTHING (which can be annoying when it comes to decorating the nursery the way I WANT!) I think in the end it will be me to choose most everything- I am compromising on a "few" things though. He is going to make the cutest dad I already know. He comes to every appointment possible- records EVERY heartbeat he hears and video tapes pretty much every ultrasound. Whenever he see's a father and son together he get's all giddy and says "That's gonna be ME soon!" He is JUST as excited if not more so than I am (if that's even possible)We can't wait to snuggle our little man.
Here is the picture of the nursery thus far. We still have to paint and now go buy a brand new crib. If you didn't hear my nightmare story- here is the short version: I bought a pottery barn crib on craigslist for $200- it was the EXACT crib I wanted but for $400 less. I asked the lady if it was recalled or anything crazy like that- she claimed it wasn't- I put it together to find out it was- called pottery barn and they are now giving me $600 to go buy a BRAND NEW CRIB- whatever I want! Turned out in my favor! :)
I am pretty much THE WORST at taking belly shots. This is my second ever- at 16 weeks. I had a hard time justifying taking them since I felt it all looked the same but here it is. Sorry about the bad quality. My friend at work took them because she tries to remind me to take them since I don't.
Baby Declan has been making himself "known" as of late which I LOVE. My belly bumps into random things now and I am feeling little flutters (not a lot but a few)I cannot wait to feel him move more.
P.S. DO NOT watch birth videos 5 months before you know you have to give birth- I'm scared now...
And GOOD LUCK to all you ladies finding out in the next week about your BFP! I am seeing more and more good results and am so happy for ALL of you- sending baby dust your way! :)
Thursday, December 15, 2011
This is a little (hint hint) to my husband...:)
I would like a new purple case for my awesome new phone (The Thunderbolt )
Of course I need the BEST Petunia Pickle Bottom Diaper Bag :)
And some cute maternity clothes since I have NONE thus far- literally...
And maybe a video camera for the baby- is that too much to ask?? :)
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Friday, December 9, 2011
p.s Husband liked the room so it's a go- looks like I won't be blogging for a while :)
THEN this: I have LOVED this cute saying and picture I found on a friends blog because of all the infertility stuff we have been through! I would of course paint the outside with probably gray and put it on the blue wall somewhere. :)
And Maybe incorporate this cute saying somehow with some vinyl lettering or Subway art:
AND my FAVORITE is that sign below- the canvas that says "You make me Happy When Skies are Gray" I want it- maybe even with the yellow to incorperate some other colors than blue and gray- so maybe tid bits of light green and yellow OH and BURLAP- LOTS and LOTS of burlap
Of course I will add some fun curtains and other things- I thought it would be fun to maybe paint these shutters- not sure what color yet- SOMEHOW to make them coordinate (blue, green, yellow) and keep the letters that tan to tie all the fun burlap in- I still don't know what bedding I will use- something that matches and is unique- I also still need some of the furniture and the chair- but I THINK I have finally narrowed down the colors enough where I can get to work on my project...:) LOTS of work to do in the next five months or so- wish me luck! :)
At this point I have NO clue if this will come together the way my mind is imagining it- OR if my husband will happen to agree with my ideas- BUT it's a start! Have to start somewhere right?!
Thursday, December 8, 2011
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
He lit up like it was Christmas and had a glow ALL day about his mini me. It totally melted my heart when I talked to a lot of the other moms about boys- getting SO excited now for a cuddly little boy, getting to have a little missionary, having to watch toy story 8,000 times in a day, and seeing Jonny as he LOVES on his son. Having a little boy cousin 6 months apart means they will be the BEST of friends as well! That day though we went home and had the walk through on our apartment- LAST DAY! YAY! Then was stuck unpacking, hanging stuff up, and cleaning the house for the party. The party was PURE CHAOS! Not gonna lie- I should have planned a little better because the gender announcement was a bit anticlimactic with all the children running around- LOVE them all- but Chaotic! Got me a little nervous for my boy- haha! By the time everyone left- (SUPER late) I felt like I had ran a marathon I was so exhausted- but STILL couldn't sleep with the excitement for a while- PLUS my husband had a fever and was getting sick. Awesome.
Here is him when he was finally kicking his legs around- he must have been VERY sleepy :)
He is maybe sucking his thumb here? I have NO idea- he kept his hands touching his face a lot of the time...
You can kind of see his little eyes here- I know these are all a little ALien but he has grown SO much in 4 weeks!
Covering his face and showing off his cute ear!
In a little ball :)
Here is him stretching out his legs- So funny!
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Monday, December 5, 2011
I suspect you know this even if your doctor doesn't: A major part of your PCOS disorder is psychological and emotional.
I don't have to describe the distress, suffering, frustration, embarrassment, desperation and hopelessness many of you are experiencing. You know exactly what I'm talking about.
You are not alone, according to emerging research. For example, the University of Iowa Roy J. and Lucille A. Carver College of Medicine studied 60 PCOS women over 22 months. 40% were depressed, 17% had major depressive disorder or other depressive syndromes. This rate might have been worse but 23% of the women were taking anti-depressants.
11.6% had anxiety syndromes, and 23.3% had binge eating disorder.
56.6% of all the women had some kind of mood disorder. The Iowa researchers also noted that 18% of the women did not start out depressed but became depressed after 22 months.
They also said menstrual function, fertility and body image (weight, hirsutism, acne) were the same among both the depressed and non-depressed women. So, surprisingly, these features were not the apparent cause of the mood disorders.
In another important study, the Karolinska Institute in Sweden reported a strong association between PCOS and anxiety. They compared 30 women with PCOS to 30 women who did not have PCOS. The groups were matched for age, weight, and body mass index.
They discovered that the PCOS women were much more anxious. Their most troublesome symptoms were reduced sleep, worry, phobias, and pain.
There's no question that polycystic ovary syndrome is actually both a physical and a mental disorder.
We can't just sweep the mental/emotional part under the rug and pretend it doesn't exist. There's an 800 lb. gorilla in the room and we all need to find ways to deal with it.
Your body and being is one whole. In your body, there is no separation between your physical parts and your mental/emotional parts. Your physical and mental aspects are in constant communication with each other and influence each other.
It should be obvious that a successful treatment program for polycystic ovary syndrome would include both physical and mental components.
But think back for a moment. When your doctor gave you a diagnosis, what did he or she do? Prescribe birth control pills, tell you to lose weight if overweight, and dart out the door to the next patient?
And what about your feelings? Your emotions? Your depression and anxiety? Your stress level? I'll bet these critical issues were never discussed or dealt with.
So it's really up to you. I encourage you to acknowledge the mental aspects of PCOS and find some ways of solving the issues of depression, anxiety, binge eating, etc.
Here are a few quick ideas to get you started.
1) Find a psychologist or other mental health professional to help you. You need to get outside your little bubble of isolation and helplessness. An experienced mental health professional can be very helpful to you and give you the support you need to make positive changes.
2) Take walks. Simple physical activity such as walking can relieve depression and anxiety, reduce the urge for compulsive eating, reduce stress, and more.
3) Keep a daily journal. Doing so will help you maintain greater awareness of what's going on in your life.
4) Find some good self-help books and read them. Maybe they will give you some good ideas. Example: "Learned Optimism: How to Change Your Mind and Your Life" by Martin Seligman, PhD.
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Monday, November 21, 2011
Now what I REALLY want is this:
I think $1400 is a little much for a a changing table- we'll see- I do feel I deserve the best nursery of all time so MAYBE I can convince the husband...maybe. :)
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
I officially have the keys to my new house and have been thinking of ideas of what to do with the room...especially because I find out in 3 WEEKS from today what I am having!!!! I seriously can't believe it! My baby this week is the size of a LIME!
Monday, November 7, 2011
10 weeks down- 30 to go!!! I know it's early but I am already counting down- only 30 more weeks till our sweet baby is here!
Monday, October 31, 2011
Oh and a picture of the baby from last week. :)
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Saturday, October 8, 2011
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Thought I would post pictures of the morning of the transfer finally. Here we are in our get up- when you're doing an embryo transfer you literally can't wear makeup, perfumes, smelly hair products- nada- so we showered that morning (no lotions and potions) and headed over in comfy clothes. I took a Valium- an hour before to relax my uterus- it relaxed me enough to sleep the rest of the day though...guess I'm a lightweight. Here we are before the transfer.
When we got there the doctor came in and gave us a speech as promised on how many embryo's we SHOULD transfer. I sat in the room for 15 minutes and cried trying to decide. The embryologist gave me a picture of my embryos and said- this is your embryo- you want room for it to grow and be healthy. So that's what I did. I froze 7 other good embryo's. Dr. said it was enough for another 3 rounds of invitro (doing 2 each time) He said at his office 96% plus of the them survive after being defrosted (haha sounds so funny I froze my babies for later) Luckily those next few times I decide to do in vitro I don't have to go through stimulating more eggs (that was awful)
So here is the picture they gave us of the baby- crazy how that mass is the baby already forming- this was BEFORE it got implanted! The science is amazing to me! The Doctor puts this directly into my uterus- baby's job is then to hatch from it's outer layer and burry into the lining.
Here is the end result:
It takes nine days to find out if the embryo attached- the nine days after the transfer look like this:
|One||The blastocyst begins to hatch out of its shell|
|Two||The blastocyst continues to hatch out of its shell and begins to attach itself to the uterus|
|Three||The blastocyst attaches deeper into the uterine lining, beginning implantation|
|Five||Implantation is complete, cells that will eventually become the placenta and fetus have begun to develop|
|Six||Human chorionic gonadotropin (hCG) starts to enter the blood stream|
|Seven||Fetal development continues and hCG continues to be secreted|
|Eight||Fetal development continues and hCG continues to be secreted|
|Nine||Levels of hCG are now high enough to detect a pregnancy|
This morning I got blood work done to check my hormone levels- I continue the progesterone shots in the butt (which is bruised) and wear estrogen patches- this continues till I am 12 weeks pregnant or start a period- so now I pray no period starts- I am hoping this embryo's a fighter! To keep my mind off that I leave for Hawaii bright and early tomorrow morning! :)